On the first page of our story
The future seemed so bright,
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you'll always be my hero
Even though you've lost your mind
(Everything is a made up fairy tale in the bginning, and you feel as if you have finally met the "perfect guy". Turns out he is just luring you into his cage so he can trap you in and take advantage of everything you've ever attained in life. You see what has happened and it all makes sense, but you still can't leave).
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie
Now there's gravel in our voices
Glass is shattered from the fight
And this tug of war, you'll always win
Even when I'm right.
'Cause you feed me fables from your head
With violent words and empty threats
And it's sick that all these battles
Are what keeps me satisfied
(The abuser now has you trapped in their psychotic lifestyle...they start arguments just to have the fight...they lie and threaten to cheat on you, or leave when you know they won't, but for some reason they have made you believe that the fight is a good thing because they "care" enough to fight with you. If they stopped fighting with you, then that means that they're done with you...you're used and damaged goods. You have put everything you have-and I mean everything-to change yourself to fit the psycho abuser's life. If they move on, you have nothing and no one because they've probably convinced you to alienate yourself from your loved ones...you won't even know yourself.)
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie
So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
Til the walls are goin' up
In smoke with all our memories
(You know you need to leave but you can't...mostly of fear of the outside world. Abusers suck all healthy relationship norms from their victims, and make them think they cannot survive without them in the real world. Living with a psycho is better than forever being alone, right? Isn't that what they convince you?)
[Eminem's Part]
It's morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
Smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
Hush baby, speak softly, tell me you're awfully sorry
That you pushed me into the coffee table last night
So I can push you off me
Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
Run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
Baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
Destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
Know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
That we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
Together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
You hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
But together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
Our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counsellin'
This house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
Square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
With you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it
(Trying to communicate with an abuser is impossible...they start to have normal conversations just to start an argument. You can't ever have a full on normal conversation with an abuser. Also, they always "get even" and come out on top. They can never admit to being wrong. They threaten your life and livelihood, and in my case, the lives of my children. They say that if they can't have you, no one will...that they would rather kill you and bury you than to see you happy with another man. Or that they would kill themselves if you left. They say they would take your children from you and have you killed. They talk about someone else being the mother to your children. Yes...these are all things that abusers say to their victims in the pattern of abuse. These are just some of the things my abuser said to me. This is why the cycle is SO hard to escape. Even if you think they are empty threats...you start to believe them...because they're unpredictable humans aka psycopaths.)
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because
I love the way you lie
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